II. Forgiving

The Second Part..

Thirdly, I tried to remember my sweet memories that I ever spent with my colleagues and try to recall it in my mind, their kindness that they gave to me. Finally I realized that they were not bad people, Maybe they just committed error as human.
Fourthly, by time running, there are many experiences and events that happened to me made me forget the painful feeling and be mature.

Bad thinking, pain, hatred and revenge can not create kindness and benefits for me and other people. Good energy just be focused on the bad things. Therefore, life becomes limited and surrounded in discomfited and regretful circle. On contrary, good energy should be used for positive things and produce optimal result for our activities, relationship with others and improvements for our futures.

After I had done all the process of “Healing” gradually, I could release the problem and suffering experience. I can say openly “ I have already Forgave them”, “I have no burden, forced and pretended feeling in my head.” I obtain incredible result, “ My heart is calm.” I can see my strength and accept my weaknesses. My relation with other people is fulfilled with happiness and joy. I also can do the best for my self in my activities, work and daily life. Suspicious and fear feeling be hurt by others getting disappear. The good result are the bright moment for me.

If you ever feel the same experience like me in forgiving other or apologizing to someone, you can try open your heart little by little to accept or give the forgiveness to someone. It is not easy like to turn over the palm of your hand, but at least you have already tried it. Maybe by attempting my “Healing “ prescriptions, it can be good for you. The most essential, you have strong willingness to accept apology and give forgiveness to people that you make hurt or make you feel it. After you have willingness, make Realization to do it. I believe you can do it. Have a nice effort because asking apology is a brave act and forgiving someone is an act that prove you are person that pure heart and it can create beauty inside you. You decide the life. Not the Life control you and you're a real person who firm you life!

Let's change the way you think about forgiveness and learn how to use it as your advantage. By hanging on hurt feeling and negative thoughts and emotions, you are only harming yourself and attracting even more negative energy. Forgiveness will cleanse you and set you free. It is incredible powerful process, which will immediately shift you from a place of pain and hatred to a higher powerful kindness and love. You decide the life. Not the Life control you and you're a real person who firm you life! Choose happiness and welcome to the Freedom of life!

Forgiving

The First Part..

The Word “Sorry” often we said and heard. The simple things that we can say, “ I'm Sorry” or simple things that have no correlation with our feeling, we easily apologize or to forgive someone. On the contrary, it is difficult to accept the forgiveness if it makes our heart hurt. We feel difficult to forget it and accept sorry from the person that makes you feel offended. Even we often say, “ I forgive you”, or “OK, It doesn't matter”. In fact, in our heart we do not accept the forgiveness. Do you really forgive the person in your heart? The answer maybe NOT. “ I don't want to forgive him.” Thus, it makes our heart get pain and if it is not recovered, it will be a revenge. Even it is simply one word “Sorry”, the word will be valuable. On the other side, it can be a complicated situation if we are not ready to accept it.

As a matter of fact, forgiving someone is not easy. There are many obstacles such as our egoism and high prestige to apologize someone and accept the forgiveness. Even sometimes we keep the revenge until many years and forgive someone is very difficult to do. It happens because we cannot forgive the person sincerely. We often say, “ My heart is still hurt. I never forgive him because his words hurt me. “ I can't forget her action that insulted me.” or we say “ why I have to apologize to him, he is an annoying person.” There are many reasons ans statements that we say to defend ourselves for not forgiving and apologizing to someone. However, we feel hurt, oppressed by painful feeling. As a result, bad feeling will haunt our mind and heart.

I had ever experienced the suffered things. The painful experience may may need time to be healed. At the time, I could not forgive my two colleagues' words that hurt my feeling. Fortunately, now I sincerely forgive them even though it needs a long process.

My first reaction when the bad thing happened to me, I reflected upon my self, looked for my mistakes that I had ever done to the colleagues so they could say bad words about me. I asked my self, “have ever I hurt them?” I tended to blame myself for that event. I told the event to my family and close friends. They empowered me and give support to me. They said, “ it is not your fault, but sometimes life doesn't run well. Sometimes event happen out of your control, but it's life. You must accept it and try to open your heart for forgiving them.”

However, at the time my egoism and hatred feeling made me difficult to forgive them. I close my heart for forgiveness. But it affected me, I cannot relax, calm and hatred feeling made me offended and cried. My self esteem and potency were getting decreased. Moreover, I cannot trust other people again, and I often feel suspicious. I could not have close relationship with my people around me. In my heart I asked to my self if someone could hurt me like my bad experience. The trust feeling to others was very little.

The protected behavior that I did could not give good result. I did not get satisfaction by not forgiving them. I could not get calm and happy life and it brought bad impact to other people or my relationship, and it also affected to my work. I could not obtain maximal result from my job. Finally, I reached to the point that I realized it; I had desire to recover my self, I must open My heart again to forgive them.

Firstly, I tried to think that “They are ordinary people like me that can make mistake.” I also often hurt others by my words and actions. I realized the other people want to forgive me. In addition, God also wants to accept my apology even I make mistake and sin everyday. The positive thinking finally make my mind stay calm down. Gradually I opened my heart, even there was a little hatred and disappointed feeling in my heart.

Secondly, I prayed to God do he help me accepting the fact that life sometimes does not run accordant to my wish. With the power of prayer, the hatred feeling slowly disappear.

To be continued ...